“Names I like that represent the same Phenomenon: The Law of Attraction, The Law of Assumption, The Law of Mirroring...”

- Regina Chaylee

Manifesting, & Testing the Universe

At the time I was reading Lynn Grabhorn’s book, “Excuse Me, Your Life Is Waiting.” Let me just say that while I’ve heard that Lynn Grabhorn has since “mimicked” Abraham-Hicks and written other books that were “off,” so to speak, this particular book felt really good to me and helped Abraham’s points further hit home in a blunt and emphatic way.

So, when this opportunity came up to test my manifestation power and the Law of Attraction, I was VERY AWARE of my DESIRE to try, and I took the bull by the horns right away.

The Raffle Ticket Test ~ August 27th 2005 ! 👊

I was aware of my desire to prove to myself the Law of Attraction was real because, at the time, I was seriously doubting that it was. Abraham helped me see that every strong negative emotion means there’s an equally strong desire that I’m turning against, which is how I unearthed this one. So many things in my life were not as I expected, and I was taking issue with the universe at large. I shook my hands at the heavens, demanding that it prove that the Law of Attraction was real so that I could know my belief system was correct and relax into it.

Right at this time of consternation, a colleague of mine was throwing a workshop called “Understanding Cars and Connecting with Men,” to raise money for charity. He created the whole thing and I was helping him sort out what needed to be transformed in order for the event to work well. Not only did I have to attend because I was Bart’s coach and the event sounded fantastic, but while coaching him I found out that he was going to be holding a raffle that day and so happened to be raffling off a course (he’d mimicked with his title, called “Celebrating Men, and Satisfying Women” by Alison Armstrong) that I desperately wanted to take. I HAD to take this course. I’d already known about the seminar for some time and had wanted to go, but to add to my fervor about it, I’d recently learned that my mom and sister had attended it together just months before, which had really gotten my goat and created an even more serious hankering within me to see what I’d missed out on.

So here it was, my opportunity! In simplest terms, all I had to do was want it the most out of everyone there, and it would be mine. And really, how could anybody want it more? 

Could I prove beyond the shadow of a doubt that the Law of Attraction was the total determining force of nature in WHO would win that course, AND did I have the ability to harness it??

If what I knew about things was true, then as long as I wanted that course more than any other person in the room, my ticket would HAVE to be the ticket that was drawn. And so, within myself I struck a deal, that it would be mine or I would have to find a new belief system. I had already thought I “believed” in the Law of Attraction, and man did I WANT to be right about it, but I had been riddled with doubt because I didn’t think my life reflected the content of my thoughts. I had never put it to the test quite like this before - and with such finite terms. It was scary - and extremely exciting! 

I knew I wanted it the most. I had to want it the most because how could anyone want it more? What I didn’t know is if I could give my attention to purely winning vs. giving attention to the fear of not winning, which was also a potential sticking point with attraction power… In this sense, it was a terrifying prospect, because if the Law of Attraction was truly real, this was a game of focus and it was me against me. I had to focus. I had to win. 

I brought the, “Excuse Me, Your Life Is Waiting,” book with me as my backup cheerleader and hoped for the best. 

Upon arrival and to my surprise, they gave me 10 free tickets instead of one. My original intention was to just get one ticket because it only takes one ticket to win one course. It was all I needed. I smugly scanned the raffle block to make sure I still wanted the course more than the other items, and noticed a few things that caught my eye. 

Maybe I’d allow myself the ten tickets and win even more stuff, though nothing on that raffle block came close to my hunger for the “Celebrating Men, and Satisfying Women,” course, which at that time was priced at $400. Wouldn’t that be nice?

And of course, the reason I didn’t “need” to up the odds is because I was standing in the acceptance that the Law of Attraction is an absolute law that is more powerful than any other law in the universe, therefore, as long as I WANTED the prize (and allowed it, by wanting to win more than not wanting to lose) then it would be mine, even if, by an onlooker’s estimation, I had the worst odds in the house. Since it was pretty cool I had more chances to win the course plus other prizes, I figured there was no harm in accepting the initial 10 tickets, contrary to my original intention to have one ticket to win one course. Since everybody equally started with 10 tickets, as long as I didn’t try to increase my odds by buying more tickets, then it was fine, I concluded.

*Abraham taught me that every subject is really two subjects, what is wanted and what is unwanted. This is why wanting something the most is a fine line between desire and fear - well not that fine a line, since fear feels VERY different than positive expectation and it is on the opposite side of the vibrational scale! My emotions kept flinging between fear and excitement, letting me know constantly the vibrational content of my thoughts. 

The day held a series of instructional courses all about cars - maneuvering cars under drastic conditions, what was under the hood, how to change oil and tires, and why men love cars so much. It was great. I found myself absorbed in what I was doing and was having a great time, repeating the mantra, “I won the course!” in my mind whenever I thought about it. It was the only easy thing I could think that would shut-up the worrisome thoughts that wanted to grab my attention. 

The trickiest part for me in maintaining my winner’s focus was during the lunch break, since I wasn’t occupying my brain with learning about cars. The first person I spoke to began discussing the raffle in a way that made my heart sink, so instead of socializing, I opted to lock myself in a bathroom stall and read my book about how to let myself want something without doubt.

What a trip! It was undeniable how my emotions flung from feeling elated to feeling utterly awful when I’d focus on “what if it happens? what if it doesn’t?” That was the clearest lesson in understanding in my gut what alignment vs. misalignment feels like, and knowing the difference was easy.

I MUST have an Inner Being who knows I get to have what I want, right? The Universe must be rooting for me to win if it feels this different than the opposing thoughts, right? Either way, it felt good to believe it, so I kept at it. I kept wanting and allowing myself to feel good. 

If someone could see me now, I laughed at myself. My body shook uncontrollably as I sat on the toilet with my jeans on, holding my lunch and my book. What a scene. Luckily, I was able to gobble my food down before any ladies began occupying the other stalls!

The rest of the day got easier as I focused on what was in front of me. I threw myself into every activity and every quiz that was given after each vehicle training. I even asked one of the instructors to clarify a question on a particular quiz just to enjoy the experience more and play devil’s advocate. He hadn’t worded the question in the best way, but really, focusing my attention fully on ANYTHING was easier than holding my focus purely upon winning. I just kept telling myself, “I won the course!” and that I didn’t need to DO anything else, I just needed to feel good and get the fuck out of the way.

The big moment arrives. They’re about to announce the winner. I started shaking again. I had done well in forgetting about winning for a few hours which gave me relief from the intensity of the back and forth from excitement to fear, but now, in these moments before they drew the ticket, I felt nauseous with anxiety.

Dun dun dun… 

They called some other lady’s name… I was shocked. I think if you snapped a photo of me right then, my mouth would have been hanging ajar…but then they said, “Oh, we forgot to award the ‘other course’ for the highest score on the quizzes! …Regina!”

Huh? They were giving away “Celebrating Men, and Satisfying Women” AND the “Celebrating Women” Course, nicknamed the “Queen” course. Was the room spinning? I didn’t know there were two courses… Both worth $400?

            When they called my name for the “Queen” course, I was a mixed bag of confusion and relief. “Well, at least the Law of Attraction got it half right,” I thought sarcastically. 

Patrice, the lady sitting behind me, worked for PAX programs, (the company that created these programs being given out), and assured me they could switch the “Queen” course out with the “Celebrating Men, and Satisfying Women” course of the same value, no problem. I relaxed and felt appreciation. Well, that was pretty cool. An even swap and I’d get what I came for. Yet, ironically, when I took a closer look at the pamphlet for the course I had won, it turned out to be MORE up my alley, which I couldn’t have envisioned on my own - I didn’t even know it existed! (Did I mention my name, Regina, means Queen?) This was all too weird, and incredible because it was turning out that the Universe had this surprise up its sleeve just for me. 

            Interestingly, I got the highest test scores of the group but beat out the others by one point. Remember that question I badgered the instructor about just for fun? He sought me out to tell me that I won by a single question. Who knew I was being judged for this quiz in the first place, or even better, that I was being guided to that action of clarifying his poorly-worded question? The key I found was in realizing this fact: I felt like badgering him “just for fun.” My inner voice said to me, “That is how guidance looks! Or at least, it’s the way it looks when you’re hanging-out up there at the top of your scale…”

  Another eye-opening part of my experience was when they called my name. It seemed to me EVERYBODY applauded, as though they WANTED me to win. It’s not every day I’m in a crowd that jumps to applause that’s pointed at me. It was a visceral experience. I’d never felt that supported in my life, by a whole group of people all at once, like a jolt of love to my system. I would’ve thought someone out there would be sad that I won it, or jealous or something... but if there was, I couldn’t tell. It felt like the whole room was rooting for ME.

  The last fun, cherry-on-top-of-it all, that baffled me silly as I floated out of the building, was that during the raffle, I won the 1) Pilates driving shoes, 2) digital tire pressure gauge, and 3) dried crystallized bouquet of flowers, all of which were items on the raffle block that I “sort of” wanted. There was nothing that caught my eye that I did not win. 

I was dazed as ever, but man oh man, did I get my answer from the Universe. YES, YOU ARE THE CREATOR OF YOUR REALITY. YES, WE HEAR YOUR EVERY DESIRE. YES, YOU ARE WORTHY TO HAVE WHAT YOU WANT. YES, YOU CAN RELY ON THIS UNDERSTANDING.

What this series of experiences showed me was that a person is so powerful, they really can create anything if they can find and hold the resonance of it.

Even though there is a force called the Law of Attraction that supersedes, encompasses and overrides all other beliefs that are contrary to it, the law itself states, “that which is like unto itself is drawn,” which means that you get what you think about, whether you want it or not. AND it means that you can create anything, even if the entire manifestation is built upon a flawed premise, if you believe in that flawed premise. That is to say, one can even prove that the Law of Attraction is a falsity if they believe that to be the case, because the Law of Attraction is a law that supersedes and overrides everything, even including the perception of itself! A person has to WANT to believe they are the creator of their own reality. They have to want to believe that they can manifest with their thoughts in order to even begin the experiment of thinking on purpose and noticing what happens next. If they are closed off to this concept, that inner-thinking-experiment will never take place. 

As Abraham says, “We are so free, we can choose bondage.” And “science” can not catch up to this fast-moving-spiritual-truth because science demands that all experiments are repeatable across the board. This kind of experiment is repeatable across one board. This is an individual’s inside job since we are all the creators of our own realities and we cannot create in the experience of another. 

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When I first hatched the raffle-ticket idea, it was fresh and hopeful and full of discovery. It was also full of determination because I didn’t want to be that person, who believes in something passionately that is riddled with false premises, like many religious people I’ve known who tout the Bible as the rule book for living. 

I was asking fervently with all my heart, wanting for my belief system to be true. And most importantly, I was listening to how I felt. I was listening to my inner guidance, not to the outside world or even my own strategically-egoic mind. At least, that’s what I did at first, that first day when I won the Celebrating Women course. Every part of the entire week, was a complete and total vibrational match to the energies I found resonance with; the energies from the thoughts I was thinking [and feeling]. Every thought I had carried with it a momentum of feelings that could be read, followed and adjusted, IF I was cognizant enough to stay aware of them and willing to do the work to change them. This week had been the ultimate lesson. Law of Attraction in action from A-Z.

The moral of this story is: You get what you think about, whether you want it or not. And you get it whether you’re aware that you’re thinking about it, or not. So, it’s always a good idea to want to feel all your feelings no matter what they are because All feelings are guidance and become the realities we experience, one way or another.

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